Monday, June 9, 2014

all the people...

working in the hotel industry you have the opportunity to meet really interesting people.  and the stories change from day to day.  so you always have a chance to learn something hew or meet a new friend.  for a moment i forgot why i liked being in the industry i am in.

now that i am a little bit older instead of finding things to complain about i have found reasons to smile.  its harder to find but makes the day to day easier to handle.  i enjoy that very much.

i also forgot how cool it was to work with all of your best friends.  so long as you don't get stuck in a rut.  as long as we are all giving each other a hand improving ourselves its all for the best.  i almost feel inspired to start a new blog about them and the people i help on the day to day.  lol

Sunday, June 1, 2014


Someone told me that i should work for Cincinnati's board of commerce.  It is a thought.... lol.

Since I have been  back it has been good to me.  A brilliant apartment with a great view.  Friends that I might as well call family.  Experiences I have never had before.  And work is steady.  Money troubles aren't troubling me.  The only thing standing in my way of a better experience is.... nothing.   I have been enjoying myself even with all of the transitions I have made.

The last time I was this productive was well... I can't remember a time I have been this productive for just myself to be honest.  Cincinnati in all of its charm has been inspiring.  Every time I have left I always come back as a different woman. This time has been even better.... in some ways at least.

From music hall to the western hills; from clifton to downtown; from the east side to north side- the growth going on in this city is amazing.   15 years ago I would have thought this city was dying on its way to being Toledo.  Now with this new face lift I feel comfortable and happy in knowing that I came home. CINCINNATI.  It isn't so bad to call home.  Its GREAT.  I will probably move on to yet another adventure in a bigger city for a spell, but I know for a fact I can always call this beautiful place home.

As Cincinnati changes I am as well.  And if in any moment the city were to take a turn for the worse I can keep it moving and still be able to return to my home.  Until that day comes I am eager to make Cincinnati a better place.  It needs the younger adults to keep its success thriving and I want to be a part of it.

(as a side note.... my thoughts are random and seldom come together with ease.  all of my post will seem a little partial.  as I continue to write them I am sure my posts will increase in quality).

moving on

its a hard thing to do..... trying to disconnect from a past life is difficult.  friends that you may have made, family.... a family you may have became a part of.  love ones that have past on.  moving on is necessary though.  time doesn't stop and staying connected to those we wished would have stayed does us no good.  Your head starts to pound due to the constant battering you give it as you run into the same walls.  Moving on.... is hard to do.  Most times I just run (figuratively speaking) .

In moving forward with your life you have to make one tough decision after another.  I have made a fair share.  The most important one i made (which was almost out of my control).... is to let go.  Its hard.  I want to reach out to him (my ex)and figure out a way to work it out,  I want to talk to Amber and see how she is doing and give her a much needed hug.  I want to tell Jerry to run a better business and I will do what I can to help make it happen.  I want my parents to understand whats going on in my head.  But in wanting all of this, the moment of acceptance has to come.

 I accept the fact that it just didn't work out between he and I no matter how much it hurts. And it hurts an awful lot.  I accept the fact that Amber left her son behind.  I accept the fact that Jerry didn't want to fix his problem.  And I accept the  fact that I am a black sheep not just among my family but others.  step 1) decide step 2) hurt step 3) accept  step 4) share your lesson.

I cant tell you how informative this year has been because it would be a book.  I can summarize it for you though- Life has taught me -and still is teaching me- the lesson of moving on.